Week 3? day 3?

I don't even know what day we are on. I dropped out of the first drill 5 minutes in because I felt like blood was going to start spewing from my throat. We all had to jog in a line around the track and the last person had to sprint pass everyone to become the first in line and everyone was supposed to have a turn twice. After it was my turn to sprint and pass, I dropped out. I don't even feel embarrassed anymore and I am not sure that is a good thing. I hate not doing well at things let alone being okay with being THE WORST in a class. Embarrassment was my ultimate motivator, now I just don't care.

I have had some serious mixed emotions about boot camp. I began with dread, then excitement, then back to dread, then enjoyment then ultimately back to dread. So far, it has definitely been an experience. I say I would like to do it again, but I am not too sure. It has affected my lifestyle in the craziest way. I feel like I am missing out on things because I need to be in bed by 9PM in order to really give boot camp my all and then be able to focus at work and not screw things up. I think after boot camp is over, I will either go back to working out AFTER work or working out at 6:30AM. I don't know, we shall see.


We did a lot of working out on the ground today which means grinding your flesh into the bits of the ground up tires that cover the field. They do not feel like rubber, they feel like shards of glass that are slowly burrowing into your skin. Every time I press my body into them I think how they can't be too healthy to be around. I also thought about that bloody band aid I had to dodge during bear crawls today and it lying on those porous pieces of rubber. I wonder if they possibly have a bunch of nasty bacteria on them (and if you know me well, you know that I am not the neatest person, so this type of thing doesn't normally bother me.)

After a quick search, I find a website discussing the potential risks (from Allergic Responses to Cancer) of rolling around on these rubbery bits o' death Artificial Turf: Exposures to Ground Up Rubber Tires

I wonder if I can sue the boot camp, win a ton of money and use it for liposuction and cosmetic surgery...